i think my life's pathetic.
ugh i hate these type of days especially when they start at like 1am and no one's there.

the life lead isnt the right thing it isnt suitable it isnt what i want. what i thought i wanted a year ago started to piss me off and annoy me 6 months ago. tho everything went well after all sometimes we feel used and that we dont click y'know. dont talk normally and you hide so many things whats with that stuff. we dont stand up fo each other and enemies are being treated better. its all the spasm that covers up the fakeness. they dont care they dont know. dont even hangout well. ha. i dont know how others stand it and cover it up and still end up like some happy bitch but i cant do it. maybe its me.

i tried so hard to fit in. maybe it was wrong from the start.